Monday, April 27, 2015

I am an educator, and I always wonder



I wondered yesterday. I wondered last night. I wondered when I woke up in the middle of the night. I wondered when I came to work in the morning. I will wonder when I leave work tonight. I will wonder when I get home.
I wonder if I can balance my family and other parts of my life. I wonder if they know they are special. I wonder if I can make a difference. I wonder if I had made a difference. I wonder if I can maintain this pace of more and more in education with less and less. I wonder if I made the right choices and thanked the right people. I wonder if I have enough gratitude. I wonder if I can inspire people to be happy. I wonder how people do not understand the difference between serving and self-serving. I wonder why people have never been on a team.
When I was 5 years old, my mother told me that happiness is the key to life. When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down ‘happy.’ They told me I didn’t understand the assignment, and I told them they didn’t understand life.” -John Lennon
I did not always know I was going to be an educator. I did, however, know I was going to make a positive difference one way or another. I knew I would make people laugh so hard that their bellies would hurt. I knew I would make people feel so good about themselves; they would surpass what they thought possible. I knew I would give people opportunities that I did not have. I knew I could model character and empower leadership. I knew I could make people see themselves as leaders.
If being an educator was easy, everyone would be an educator. Everyone would understand what we need, what we do. No one would bash us. They would degrade the companies that are making the money from lobbying and over testing. They would discredit the people that do not care. They would eradicate the unethical scam and scheme artists. Then they would appreciate a common approach to education where authentic leadership is valued.
When your head hits the pillow late tonight after planning or grading tests or attending a school related function, or running your family around the east coast, please know you are not alone and you matter. Please tell your family that they matter and that you love them. Remind yourself that you have the power to touch lives every day at home and at school. Today, as I was overwhelmed with work, I opened an email from a former student. I share this letter with you because it is you. You never know who is listening but I know she was! This goes out to all parents and all educators. Every time you wonder, think of all the people that listened and you do not even know about it. This is for all the “thank yous” that you never hear. This is for creating a “Renaissance” school and a “School to Watch.” This is for understanding the value of climate and culture and knowing the difference between the two. This is for “Daring Greatly.”
Dr. R,                                                                                                                                         
It’s hard to believe that in just a few weeks I’ll be a college graduate.  These final weeks at Queens are filled with sentimental time of reflection and celebration.   For me, part of that reflection piece is passing on words of gratitude. 

Today was a beautiful day on our campus to celebrate learning with the scholarship donors who generously give to our university.  As these donors talk about why they’ve chosen to make an investment in our education, I couldn’t help but think of the investment you’ve made in my education.  It’s so neat that you’ve cared enough to watch me grow through college graduation!

At Queens our focus is living a noble life through community and character.  It’s our job to look at the world, as it “ought to be.”  I’d like to think I came to college with a basic understanding of what that meant.  It all started with you! Character traits and leadership began in those fifth grade leadership lessons.  When I share with professors, peers, and family about why I’ve been able to thrive here at Queens, It often begins with the phrase I had a middle school principal who encouraged me to write goals….  My middle school years are such a critical part of my story.

There are the moments when it gets difficult to sit in education classes knowing that the road to being a teacher has been anything but easy because my peers will be teachers sooner than me.   And then there’s moments like today’s class where we talk about classroom climate and school culture and my thoughts immediately turn to Belhaven!   Or the moment a few weeks ago when a group of students was sharing their experience about visiting the Ron Clark Academy and I told a friend that rather than going to visit that school they should go hear you speak about Belhaven…. It’s that brilliant!

 I leave Queens with a compassionate heart to serve the students in our city who need someone to believe they have a chance to succeed.   You’ve given me a tremendous amount of hope and inspiration.  It’s time for me to give that to other young people. You’ve made me a visionary!  Being an educator is still the passion that sits in my heart and it’s going to take us more time to accomplish that goal.   I haven’t given up! My bigger dream though is to serve young people.  So maybe I’ll work with a non- profit.   I’ve given deeper thought to why I want to teach and molding people of good character is a huge piece of that….  So, I wonder what it would be like to get a job promoting character education programs like Renaissance in more of our public schools.
  
 Anyway, here’s what I’ve learned in my time as student… If Dr.  R. says he believes in you he meant it and nearly anything is possible!  WE did it!!

 Congratulations to Franki as she finishes her freshman year and Danica for getting ready to start high school!

With Gratitude,
Julie 


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